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Tuesday, February 06, 2007 @ 20:56

What am I doing? Why am I doing this??? I still can't get my ass together to study... I'm already so behind time compared to WL, GK and ZX... They already do finish maths tutorial 14... Wth lah... I just done finish tutorial 11 only and they are 3 tutorials ahead... I give up... I so don't want to study anymore... I can't even bring myself to stay awake during lessons anymore... Just now bio prac Mdm Sim was going through A level stuff and I slept through the last ten mins of it. I totally KO-ed lah... Couldn't even hear anything... Crap lah... 5% of A level grade leh... And I just slept right through it... Shit shit shit...

I don't know how, I don't know why... These few days have been roller-coaster rides for me... You won't believe how close to tears I am these few days... Sometimes, even I can't control it... Nobody knows... How would they know... Except 2 people... One who told me not to be sad anymore cause it'll affect her... The other can infer from the way I sms her...

To the person who I asked to read my blog...
Dear person... I'm not going to write your name for fear of implication... you'll never be able to trust me again... I won't ask you to trust me again... I know that it's impossible... I'm also human... I know alright... All i ask is for you to give me another chance... I guess what is gone is gone, there's no way to get it back...

Anyway, you told me this... A rainbow will always appear after the rain, and that things happen for a reason... I'm telling it back to you now... Things do happen for a reason... I don't know what reason... Just hang in there... The rainbow is appearing... As always, I'm there, just a call away... But I doubt you'll turn to me now after what happened... But still, I'm there and will always be... Cause to me, you're an irreplaceable friend...

Time to change back to a lone wolf... I don't want to be sociable anymore...

A lone wolf is a wolf that lives by itself rather than with others as part of a pack. Such wolves are usually rugged and strong, by necessity. Among non-canines, this typically refers to individuals who prefer solitude or prefer to work alone. Three rules usually apply to lone wolf characters in fiction, psychologically speaking:
It is a person that has lost their in-group, or is unique enough to not have one.
The world or society in which they exist is typically corrupt.
They abide by a strong moral code.

Taken from wikipedia...

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