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Monday, May 14, 2007 @ 21:59

I really don't know why I feel this way. I don't even know why. And I was fine today too. Up till the afternoon, I just felt like giving everything up. Drop everything and just do nothing. But I can't. Maybe that's the reason why I feelthis way now. Feeling lousy and still continuing doing homework is not one of the best way to become happy again. Miss Zhang just told us that anyone who score below E for any subject during the Mid-years would get a call from her... That's like. Already one call for my bio since I know that whatever I do won't be enough to pull my grades up. Most likely a call for Chemistry too since organic chem is tested and I'm not going to shit myself, my organic chem is like fuck. Fuck lah, I don't want to feel this way. I really don't. With the kind of studious life that I have, I have absolutly no time to feel this kind of lousy emotions. Once I feel like this, doing any work= it either getting anyhow done or it flying across the room.

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Please go away, I don't have time for any of this. I just have a bad feeling this is going to stay with me for a long long time since... Whatever used to drive me is no longer able to drive me anymore, blasting music at the top of the volume (25) with headphones on and I still feel like this. I got a bad feeling about this. Luckily... I cleared majority of my homework last week... That's the only good thing I guess... Sure, people who read my blog, go ahead and call me a hypocrite, after what I posted on saturday. Go ahead, I told you my thoughts will contradict each other in a superly stupid way. Guess I'm right.