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Sunday, September 30, 2007 @ 22:15
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It's weird... Without anyone reading my blog ( or to my knowledge for that matter) I can blog something out everyday. If you're reading this or chance upon this, what can I say? You are sure to find someway to fault me on what I say anyway, with or without editing. So it's better if I write down how I truely feel and not let some people get in my way.
It's sunday for God sakes... Can't I even get pass a day without sitting down at a table and studying? Or must you force me to study everyday?
I find no joy in staying at home anymore... That's the scary part... My parents are scolding me for everything that I do ( and didn't do), my brothers are having a field day in my room such that I can't even find where I put my stuff anymore. I feel more at home in school than I do in my actual home. Cause at least in school, I'm alone and I can do whatever I want to (to an extent)
I really wonder if you have been playing me for a fool all this time. Were you? I guess I'm gulliable too no matter what I say. The only question left to answer now is... Do I really want to know the answer? Or is it better if I don't?
Run run run, that's all I can do now. Run away from the truth... It's going to catch up and bite me in the ass hard someday... I just wonder when it'll finally catch up.
As much as it pains me to say this, but I think I gotta go my own way...
The time's drawing closer and closer for me to use my last card. But, will I be able to stick with that card and bet everything I have on it without losing faith and hope? Then again, what will happen if that last card don't work... What then?
