What's written here are my own thoughts. If you disagree with it, be professional and click the red X on the top right hand side. Please don't spam my C-box with vulgarities.

I swear here and now, if I ever get attached, the one place I'll bring my girlfriend to is Changi Airport. It still takes my breathe away even though I've seen it so many times. Seriously, everytime I go there, I feel like I'm a tourist. Everytime I go, I discover something new. Today, it's that the viewing gallery is a popular pitstop for school activities. From the time I was there, (0800-1600) 3 schools came and hold their activity there can. Lol.

Looking at those children, they seem so easily contented lah... The kindergarden children were like... Damn happy that they were even there. Than whenever a plane take off they will clap damn happily lah. Haiz... Maybe sometimes being a child isn't so bad. You are innocent and ignorant. It takes so little to make you happy. Yet look at us teenagers now, caring about exams, about relationships etc. I wanna be a kid again.

I wouldn't mind getting a job at Changi Airport you know... I seriously wouldn't... Even if it's a cleaner's job. Which brings me to my point. Would you rather work because you like the job or because of the money?

Now, we're going to talk about "height". There ARE alot of people in school, my friends who are taller than me. Way way way taller... Karolyn is way way taller than me. Eunice is also taller than me. Christina is way taller than me. Amanda is also taller. Rauf is also taller. Alot of people are taller than me. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's ok. It's just spam. But if you do figure it out than good for you. Karolyn should know. She gave me this idea. Lol.

I want to make a request can... People who read my blog, please tag. I don't care what you write. Just write your name down so that I know who reads my blog. It's like what Valerie says, when you write things in your blog, you practise self-censorship. I don't wanna do that. If that's shit to be said than fine, Shit will be said. I just don't want people to read my blog than start hating me for what I've written down. Isn't that equal to practising self-censorship? Arrgghhh... Whatever lah, just tell me who is reading my blog. I know the people who tags read it. I know Karolyn reads it even though she never tags cause whatever I write somehow always appears in her blog. Until you people can be as idiotic as ZC as such that I scold him he don't even know, than that's the time when I can write freely. Trust me, I got plenty of things to say.

I just noticed something... Time is definatly not on our side. I spent the whole of the 8 hours doing the integration homework and partial fractions TYS questions. That's it you know. 8 hours just like that. MAYBE it's because I'm slow lah. But seriously. There's so many topics to study for 3 different subjects. Am I glad I found this out now, instead of nearer to the A levels period. Thank you whoever made me start studying now.

People skip the next part, it's only meant for one retarded girl name Karolyn.

Karolyn, I'm glad that through all the bad times I've been through, all the sucky times, all the times I want to just scold Fuck and give up, you were always there, supporting me, giving me advice which is true but just gets on my nerves (Lol), listening to me "roar", bitch and swear, to take time off to try to help me. So through it all, I'm glad I found a friend named Karolyn. I know I haven't say this yet but, I'm happy that you're happy. Compare your entries in Janurary to now. You're much happier now lah... Which I'm glad lah. Remember ar, even though you have CH already, even though you seem to forget, I'll still be here and I'll never ever be too busy can? Wa lao. Retarded... Remember ar, "Expensive" LOL.

That's it bah, tomorrow must study biology. Survival of the fittest is taking place right now. A lizard vs a beetle right beside me... 3 guesses as to who will win...

12 more days to the tiberium wars...

I promise to label all my posts tomorrow k, all 80 of them.

Labels: "Height", Changi Airport, Childhood, Karolyn

I know lah... My blog skin is crapping up again... Can wait until I have the time to go find a new blog skin than I change ok...

Happy birthday Farhana...

So it looks like Heaven doesn't want me, Hell also don't want me... So I'm stuck on Earth... Too bad for those who wants to see me gone... I'm back and I'm here to stay...

NO MORE MT ANYMORE!!!! I GOT AN E WHICH IS STILL A PASS!!! NO MORE MT NO MORE MT NO MORE MT!!!!!!!

Rain Rain Rain... Such a nice weather... One of the few times I can wear a jacket around for the whole day and not sweat at all BUT... Getting caught in the rain 3 times in a row when you are going back home is not fun at all...

Aiyah... Got a lot of things happen this whole week... But I can't think up anything... Guess sleeping 3 hours a day while mugging for tests is taking it's toll finally, am I glad that it only takes it's toll on me now...

Wait... Let me try to recap...

Sunday: I went to Changi Airport the whole day... I also don't know why I went there at all but I was just feeling damn fucked up lah, so I went to the other side of the island, far away from anyone I know... It helped ok... I managed to study alot there lah... I manage to rephrase all my notes into phrases that only I will understand at a glance... Don't believe I show you my Genetics notes... You'll spend a long long time on it... Trust me... Than after that I... Went to plaza sing for god knows what reason... Lol... Must be because that stupid vegetable don't want to stay at home... Lol...

Monday: I stayed up until 3 to study for bio test... Crazy right... Can sleep don't want to sleep... BUt what to do... Must mug for the marks...

Tuesday: Bio test was first... It was ok lah... I COULD have finished all the questions but there was no time but hey, at least I know how to do all the questions... Civics was stupid... Form an all boys group to do scenario 2 and you end up with the parents coming in, catching them in the act and saying how proud they are of their child... LOL... Totally different ending lah... * Next time use Durex, it's better* Lol After school was spent with Siti... I now know both sides of the story... Things are not as peaceful as they seem... Lol... Than it was to the library to study...

Wednesday: Emmm.... Emmm... Nothing? Maths retest! I Think I can pass... I'm keeping my fingers cross again... I did manage to do all the questions...

Thursday: Hmmm... Chemistry practical... What the heck is going on??? I don't even know any calculations... And I filtered the damn mixture 4 times before giving up... I set the record for using the most number of clean and dry conical flask... And Miss Zhang broke my beaker for me lah!!! Never break loh, only can see the crack line than she say broken than she take marker keep hitting it... Wthh... End up I got to pay for it... Pfffft... Than it was Lit lecture... Bosola all the way man... I support Bosola... Pffft... End up my lecture book went home with Christina... Lol... First it was Karolyn... Than Christina... After school... I went to Macafe at JP... Iced chocolate there rocks man... Damn nice lah... I stoned there for one hour waiting for the vegetable to arrive... Than went to buy SOMEONE'S birthday gift... I swear, next time someone say get anything or surprise me, I'm not going to get anything... Cause there is nothing called anything and you want me to surprise you? Don't get you anything at all loh... LOL... Must be like a certain someone what... Have a crazyly huge obssession with Tiggers...

Friday: Slept at 3 again... Studied Chemistry... Than got to reach school at 0645 for CSL meeting... Wth... But hey... We were asked to do our reflection and they asked what have you learnt from being a CSL... I learnt alot ok... More than you'll ever know... Chemistry test was ok... I could answer most of the questions... Fingers cross that I'll pass... Karolyn took my maths book away... How am I going to revise my work if you take it away huh? What if I WANT to revise?? Lol... You better not laugh at all the notes I made at the top of the pages...

I don't know leh... But than like... Seeing people while they collect their A level results and cry is like... Totally peeping to me lah... It's their private thing what... If they want to share than they would share right... People cry than you video tape them... Like a fucker like that... But Mr Leow was right... We got to wake up already lah... Where got people lecture start 30 mins than walk in one... BUT I'm innocent...

CDAC thingy was ok... The CPR they teach and the one I learnt 3 years ago is different... But I still can save a life... If need to...

I found a study partner to study with me until 3am already... She's really entertaining... We were like... Joking from 12 midnight all the way until 3 while studying for bio and chemistry lah... She's damn nice ok... I shared my problems with her than she wanted to give me a hug... Awww... BUT THAN, that was if I fail my MT which I passed... =) But the only thing i got to say is... Why the heck you think I like Christina????!!!! But... Seriously... Thanks for keeping me company studying the whole nights... I appreciate it and everything you told me... =))) It's a secret... Lol... You have to steal my phone from me to find out who it's from...

Karolyn!!!! You retarded girl... Please lah, even if I'm busy you think I'll shoo you away meh??? You think I so cold-hearted ar... Don't stress already lah... You want I give you chocolate... Help you break your resolution... LOL... Wa lao... You got who already lah... And you know the thing we talked about? I think it's true... Haiz... Return me my maths booklet!!!! And you were suppose to scream when I showed you the lizard... *Impossible*

It's not what is said that matters, it can be as bad as hell itself... It's who says it that matters the most... I understand that now...

I need to past those 3 tests that I took this week... I tell you, if I pass all 3 ar, I will go into hyper mode and start loving studying like a mugger lah... I need the motivation I tell you...

Comparing J1 and J2 life, J1 life any break= going to play or sleeping... J2 break= more mugging... Haiz... Old already lah...

I'm going to sleep... I swear I'm so damn tired that while waiting for my brothers to give me the computer just now I just fell asleep standing up... Wth... I continue tomorrow lah... Finally, A good night's sleep... Just what the doctor ordered...

Everyone needs this ok... Everyone in the world... Take a moment dudes/dudettes, have a little patience... Emm... The bold parts are the parts that I feel that i should say?

Just have a little patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions

Cause I need time.
My heart has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong.
Believe me, I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Take that; Patience


I got to get me a few of those lizards... Imagine the amount of fun I would have with them... LOL...

Labels: Happy Birthday, Karolyn, Review, Study Partner

I wrote a damn long post yesterday, but i guess I shouldn't have posted it so I deleted it. I guess ignorance is really bliss... I really don't know what I should blog about... Just got nothing else to do I guess... Who wants to know about my boring life anyway...

Christina makes alot of sense. I really can't please everyone. I can't even please myself... You people don't know how many times i feel like giving up on everything... I can't even please myself, god knows how many times i hate myself... Stop giving me stress lah... I really on the edge already can...

And to those people who keep saying that I don't talk to you on MSN, Stop it ok, just fcuking stop it. Why don't say you're trying to push the blame to me? Like YOU talk to me on MSN. Stop it lah...

Karolyn... Thanks for that paragraph... It seriously means alot... But for once right, just for once... Just Shoo... ( You know what I mean...) Just shoo lah... And congratulations... I'm happy for you k...

Labels: Christina, Karolyn

It's the little things that people do, no matter how small, no matter how insignificant that makes things all worth while... That smile on your face, the look in your eye... The one simple message that you sent, the things that you do... So this post is once again dedicated to Karolyn for a simple reason...

She sent me a message in the morning that woke me up and for that I'm grateful cause stupid me off-ed my alarm and went back to sleep again. =D What to do, tired what... So Thank you Karolyn cause if you didn't message me, I would be late, than I would be in a bad mood the whole day... So thank you Karolyn Gan... AND THANKS SO MUCH FOR LENDING ME YOUR CALCULATOR FOR SPA(stic)! Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you... But no thanks for calling me retarded when I thanked you this morning... =X And i hope you had fun with you know what today... Lol...

Tomorrow's Valentine's day... I'm all alone... I'm so lonely... Lol... HAHAHAHA... Who wants a date???

Thank you those who gave a smile today. You guys brighten up my day... =D

Thank you for the person who invented the piano in 1709. ( SEE! I know! Cause I have to but still, I remember). Thank you

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

Westlife; Swear it all again


Aiyah... Actually I wanted to type something else out but than i forgot... Sian... My train of thoughts just got de-railed...

Labels: Karolyn

First things first, hats off to girls who can walk around for so long in high heels around and around... I walk around in sport shoes already want to die can... Lol...

So saturday and Sunday were spent walking around doing some last minute new year shopping. Me? I wanted to get a new bag and new shoes. So we went around and around and around. Those who want to know what, go read Joanthan's blog. Anyway, I met a lot of people on Saturday... Alex in the MRT, Chin Chye at Bugis, OG16 at Marina where Karolyn Gan whacked me which brought on a massive headache and finally Wei Hao on the way back. Wth... Anyway, after coming back on Saturday, my parents told me that we had to go pray to my grandfather in the morning and go for a dinner at night. So there goes my plan of studying on Sunday. So what the hell, I stayed up the whole night on Saturday studying can... Zzzz... Haha. Than went to JP to meet Jonathan and ZC to buy stuff. I finally bought my shoes. =D Who cares what others think. They can go to ************ for all I care. Lol. Than went to Karaoke Session with my father's side of the family than dinner. My father side of the family... Wa lao... All got university degree lah...Stressful... Must keep up the tradition... Lol...

Valentine's day is coming... Who wants a Valentine's day present? Tag! If not see whether I want to get for you anot... I already getting for 2 people... 1 being the person who keeps whacking me... Oh yes, to all 06S02 girls, be prepared to be suprised on Valentines day. =D

I'm so dead. So much homework and test to study for... Someone tell me what came out in Chemistry SPA and Biology SPA. Thanks! Lol.

Labels: Karolyn, Valentine day

I really don't see what's the point of having a blog if whatever I write up here, people are just going to pick up on it and make a hell lot of noise about it. Hello you idiots. This is MY blog? Not yours? Why can't I blog whatever I want? Did I even ask you to read it? If I'm restricted until like that, I might as well don't blog at all... Did I ever stop you for saying what you want to say on your own blogs? You know what, In short right, just ************************************************** and leave me alone.

Saturday was spent at Vivo city... Motivating people. I danced with Karolyn! Not that I had anyone else to dance with anyway... The rest were all either OGLs or J1s. Since i know neither, so... Stick with someone i know lah... Mr Subash booked too many buses liao! Lol. I was on the bus with only 6 CSLs going to Vivo city. 6 of us in a big bus. Lol. Too good to be true liao... Zzzz... Reach there same thing as last years campfire loh... Just shout and dance... Lol... I know how to dance She Bangs liao... In 2 mass dance sessions? Lol... Because got someone teaching me what... Thanks... Hats off to the new J1s... They were actually more motivated than us J2s. After that took the bus back to school... To show how retarded Karolyn is...

Me: Omg, It's already 1130! I thought it was only 1030! etc etc etc
Karolyn: You damn retarded leh!
Later when we reach school...
Karolyn: Ehh? It's 12am already ar? I thought it was just 1100...

She gave me a one page long letter. =) Really made my day... Thanks retarded girl...

So I'm stupid lah. I have to go for extra lessons while you don't have to, You can pass all your tests without mugging while I fail mine even though I mug. Ok loh, I'm stupid loh.

Stupid... Totally ruined my day today... I scolded **** 5 times during maths lecture? Lucky I never resolve not to scold anything... Lol.

The 4ngelofd34th has taken my soul to another place...

Labels: Karolyn

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the ____________

Fill in that blank by yourself...

Today has been a many of firsts... First time this year i scolded **** to a girl in my sms... But than... She scolded 3 times... Stupid shit day... Which idiot even came out with that idea?? You think what, the world revolves around us ar? Want to change only than can change... Everything is set that way for a reason... Anyway, how the heck is this different from last year? If you can survive for one year why can't you survive for another year... So many changes have been suggested and guess who are the people who say don't want...

AHhhhhhhh... Karolyn was so nice today... She "counseled" me after school... But than she kicked me and slapped me... Lol... I wanted to slap her... But than... She... Never mind... Karolyn when you free??

Got to get my ass back to studying... 3rd week already... Can die man... K... From today onwards, every monday- Thursday, either I stay in school and study or I go library and study... K... Settled... New new year resolution...

Looking for someone to study with... Long term one... Lol... Someone to smack me if I fall asleep... Anyone... PLease... Lol... Contact me ASAP... Lol...

Blasting music is a good way to forget your troubles for a while... =)

Thank god for friends like Karolyn... They make life worthwhile...

Labels: Karolyn

This post is utter nonsense and randomness... Just want to show a few things...

I slaughtered a cow... I killed my cow... I'm so sorry... I just wanted to change the battery... and you fell to pieces... I'll revive you when I have the time to...



I got a kangaroo! I got a kangaroo! I got a kangaroo! I got a kangaroo! I got a kangaroo!



Why is it that everytime a evil character comes into the show, it must always be way cooler than the hero of the show?



Anybody wants a free ride?



Karolyn bully me!!!! Karolyn bully me!!! I never call her name and she still calls me a jerk... AND SHE MADE FUN OF MY CHINESE!!!!!! PFFFTT! Karolyn bully me!!!

I miss smsing a few people... SOMEHOW, I always don't receive a reply from them... WTH? Zzzz Never mind, I got one thousand free sms now. Can flood someone's inbox with nonsense... Now who shall that be??

I am freaking weird ok... I don't collect normal stuff like Karolyn collecting Tiggers or Jonathan collecting model guns... Guess what I collect? I collect coke cans. =) From all around the world. Don't you think it's cool to collect something that is like this in Singapore and something else in another part of the world? Damn cool lah. I also collect dices. =) My prized dice, a 20-sided dice. =))))) Used that to play monopoly once... Guess how many turns it took to finish the whole board... 3... LOL... I also collect hour-glasses. =))))))))))

OH YA!! Guess whose the organizers for next Saturday's Vivo City event!!! Oh yea, Youths Rock!@ South-west motivators are J1s, the organizers are CSLs. WOOTS!!!

That aside... People who want to give up, including myself, keep holding on!! We already come so far already... Just a few more months only... Last lap liao, than can forget about studying for 2 years. =) So keep holding on!!!!!!

PS: GO SUPERWOMAN!!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! I TAKE MY HAT OFF TO YOU (IF I WAS WEARING ANY IN THE FIRST PLACE. LOL!). YOU ARE REALLY SUPERWOMAN SIA... NEXT TIME WANT TO BULLY YOU MUST USE KRYPTIONITE FIRST... LOL! Jia You

PSS: People who want me to link them, TAG WITH A PROPER LINK! Don't give me a dead link lah... -.-"

Labels: Kangaroo, Karolyn, Pictures

I'm so gonna fail A levels... I don't understand complex numbers, I just learnt how to draw Argand digrams while the rest already done finish everything... I'm So slow... Bio is gone... Mdm Sim just went through linked genes and I have totally no idea what she was going through just now until the last part... Chemistry... Organic chem is screwed man... So screwed that I don't even think I want to study for it... Lit... Haven't even read finish Duchess yet... I can read a 700+ page book in 4 hours and I can't even read 20 pages of the Duchess in 30 mins... Karolyn ar... I don't think i can give you the summary liao... I don't even think I can read it finish in time... I'm so sorry k... GP... Haven't start yet but I think that's the only subject which i can do well in... NOTE: My defination of doing well is getting a pass... I think I'm gonna do badly for A levels...

Other than Academic wise, Karolyn gave me a Kangaroo!!! A REAL ( not live ) BUT STILL A REAL KANGAROO!!! :)))))))))))))))))))))) Now i feel so paiseh... Lol... I only joke only than she take it for real... Thanks alot Karolyn! One more thing... She stop calling me retarded liao... Lol... She calling me by my name liao... So i guess I should do the same? Lol... And the thing they talked just now while waiting for the bus ar... Really... Something to do with having brains and _________... Wa Lao... This kind of thing also say...

TOMORROW'S MAIN EVENT: THE ROASTING OF A LIVE VALERIE FOR WRITING SUCH THINGS IN THE 06S02 BLOG. ALL ARE INVITED TO WITNESS IT!!!

Playing CS with bots that only have knives while you have all weapons available to you is really really a good way of reliefing stress. :)

Anybody wants to buy love fiesta tickets from me?? Lol...

Everyone, the school collar pin is dangerous! I don't mean the pin end. The whole thing is just dangerous. Don't believe, see my right thumb... The whole top of it got sliced by the collar pin...

Someone do me a favour and whack me real hard the next time you see me...

Labels: Karolyn

" If just one piece is missing, the picture won't be complete. If anyone was missing, the camp wouldn't be a success. Even if you are the smallest piece in the picture, Without you, we would still be imcomplete. Every piece plays an important part in bringing out the best in everyone else."

This post is dedicated to the self-proclaimed Miss Universe Karolyn who asked me to update yesterday. If you have all noticed, I never call her anything anymore besides her name. To find out why, please continue reading. If not, please skip.

Adapted from Karolyn's blog:
let's start wiv a promise from YONGJUN, the jerkhead :D
YJ says:Karoline, thanks lotz hor
Karolyn-n. we fear how we feel inside. says:oei jerk ! stop karoline-ing me.
Karolyn-n. we fear how we feel inside. says:hahas, youre welcome (: i had much fun too
YJ says:at least i never called you ah mah already right
Karolyn-n. we fear how we feel inside. says:i'd rather you call me ahma then karoline lahh
Karolyn-n. we fear how we feel inside. says:=p
YJ says:ok lah
YJ says:i don't call you anything
YJ says:i call you karolyn k
Karolyn-n. we fear how we feel inside. says:yay, okay !

hahas, yongjun, e whole world sees what you promised me, so you better carry your promise out hor :P if i catch you calling me ahma / karoline once more, you die le :p heehee. look what he said in reply :D

YJ says:never mind
YJ says:still got alot more of other things to call you
YJ says:=D
YJ says:Like
YJ says:Miss Universe
YJ says:XD

then he broke it lahh. uggghh. oh wait wait, LOOK WHAT HE JST SAID :DDD

YJ says:I promise that i won't call karolyn ah mah or karoline anymore from this point on

i swear i never plus minus times divide anyth he said. pure truth :p

Ya, that's true... The pure truth... Furthur on, this is what she had to say the day before.

YongJun is less jerk :D gave me a packet of marshmallows after break camp. i hugged it to sleep >.< & HE MADE MILO FOR ME. hot milo, & he got HOTTER milo. Ya... Just one of the many things i did... Haiz, i promised her liao, so i might as well write it here also... Karolyn, I promise that i Won't call you anything else other than your name otherwise you can kill me. Happy? lol... Past few days have been... Fun, horrible, sad, happy, touching, frustrating etc etc. 2 months of hardwork just came in 3 days 2 nights and all of a sudden, it's gone, it won't come back till next year. What I'm talking about? Prices of life camp. In a short summary, i shall steal this from Tommy's blog this time round. "theme is "Prices of Life", breaking the word "Prices" becomes "pri" and "sec"... which mainly is help these students witht the transition period from pri sch to sec sch..." Ya, I'm damn slow can... Didn't even realize what Prices mean until the first day of the camp. Doing this camp have opened my eyes to alot of things... Suffice to say, writing it down will be pointless unless you experience it for yourself. Will update tomorrow or some other day. It's already midnight and there's maths lecture tomorrow. ugghhh... I hate maths... Summary of what i did for the camp: Ran up and down the PD block staircase for 30+/- times a day. Ran around the school for 20+/- times a day Climbing over the school gate 6 times at night to get stuff Sleeping a total of less than 8 hours for 3 days And so on and so forth... BUT, the experience is damn worth it. Would jump at the chance to do it again even though i wanted to halfway. Last note to myself: Write a thank you email to all facs and helpers for helping out at this camp. Who ask you never thank them when you have the chance. Serves you right.

Labels: Karolyn, Prices of Life

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