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Thursday, March 08, 2007 @ 23:36

Why do all good things come to an end???

The world is unfair. It's totally unfair. No matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you do, there's always that person whose better than you. And it's not as if I don't want to pass once for a change, so why do all the teachers keep talking about you failing as if you purposely fail just to get on their nerves??? Please lah, give me a freaking chance to pass and wouldn't I like to pass? Wtf lah. And what makes it even more irritating is that people can study at the last minute and they can get As lah......................................................................................

As you can read lah, I screwed up my tests lah... It's............................. Depressing enough as it already is................................................. If this keeps up, I might as well save the money spent on A levels exam fee and just drop out of school now lah................................... I am sick and tired of studying everyday and get no results back in return.............. It just kills your morale, just makes you frustrated and just makes you want to give up....................... WTF, i never ever felt like this during J1... Wtf... If only I started worrying then... If only.................................................

Maybe I should look at the bright side of things, maybe I should be happy that at least my grades are improving... They seriously are... I used to get a really really lousy U but at least now I'm managing between a S or an E. I failed Bio by 3 marks... 3 measly marks cause I didn't have enough time to do an Eight mark question. Read properly, 8 Marks... And I'm damn unhappy can??? A stupidly simple test like differentiation and I can barely even pass it... I got 17.5 out of 30............................ WTF lah........... It's just freaking A maths work lah!!!!!!!!! And I can't even score welll for it............................................................................................ WTF lah.................................................. Maybe I should just be happy................ Take things one step at a time................ Learn how to walk before running..................................... And it sometimes makes me wonder why people wonder why suicide rates are so high in JC levels......................... But i screwed my GP test can... People write 3/4 pages all I manage to crap out is 1 and a half page........................................ Fuck lah...........

You know what??? If you don't want to help out or do something about it, than why dont you just shut the fuck up and keep quiet??? Seriously............ If you don't want to go for any class outing or anything, why don't you just SHUT THE FUCK UP and keep your comments to yourself you *************************!! I tell you, when I heard what you said, I just wanted to stand up and give you a punch lah................... Even though you are a girl.................. Shit......................................... What the hell is wrong with me?????? I even want to punch a girl......................... Shit..................................................................................................................................................... I think I'm losing it............................................

Cariola ar Cariola.................... Ai yah......................... Just read the post it note on your core readings lah.............. Everything I want to say is there............. But sometimes, the past keeps coming back to haunt you................................................

Most likely, guess whose going Changi again on Sunday................................................................ First 2 guesses don't count................................ I need to get away from everyone I know......................... Far far away........................................................... I guess Changi's as far as I can go...............................................

I'm certain that I'm still going to hell..............

The deepest valley is but next to the highest hills.....

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Monday, February 26, 2007 @ 06:40

As much as I want to psycho myself and say: " Hey, everything's alright", it is truly the opposite... I'm losing my mind, sanity, mood, sleep, everything about it... I'm now averaging 3 hours sleep a day? And everytime I think about it, it just makes one feel so fucked up... AND, the worse of all is... I'm starting to doubt everything that I do, everything that I think... I starting to not trust my own action and words... I wish I could rip my heart out and stop it from feeling this way... Emotions like this are totally useless...

I know that I said I would be there to listen to all your problems and frustrations but... Selfish or not, I can't help anyone now... Not with the way I'm feeling these few days... So until I can solve my own problems, please don't approach me with yours k...

PS: Avoid me for the next few days, I don't know what I'll do... Unless you want to be a victim...

Someone just shoot or stab me lah...

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Saturday, February 24, 2007 @ 00:33

If hell has a position reserved especially for me for what I say and do, so be it... I will gladly go to hell if I get to say what I want to say...

This past week has been total SHIT ok... Totally shit shit shit shit as in S.H.I.T...

I wanna rip my heart out of myself so that I'll never ever feel like this again... Rip it out and lock it somewhere far far away...

Try going back home everyday to a home where your parents blame you for every little shit that happens... From sleeping in the afternoon to staying up late to do homework to god knows what else... People tired will naturally fall alseep one right. Bloody hell, I ask those 2 idiots to follow the example I set is it? They already sec one they cannot think for themselves what's right and what's wrong ar? Are they really that damn stupid that they can't tell what's right from what's wrong? And why the hell do you blame me for everything that goes wrong??? Is it my fault that you always tell me last minute that I have to go out with you when I already planned to do my homework during that time? Or that I stay up just to finish it just so that I can hand it up on the deadline? Stop freaking take things out on me just because you're angry with the rest...

Hell, I might as well continue... What the F*** did i do to you? What's your problem with me??? I never even do anything lah... You mother F***ing **. Don't think just because you're a F***ing girl you can get away with it... I have had enough of you...

I so want to kill Kingsley(?) the fucking idiot who wrote that animals have no rights... Fucking idiot, if you haven't noticed, humans are animals too... What makes you think that humans are superior? Just because they can walk and talk? Put a lion and a human into a jungle... We'll see whose ass gets kicked... I tell you, mother nature will kick our asses so badly one of these days...

Very smart hor, go together as a class so that we won't get scolded for coming late... All said yes and guess what? Whose the first to run off and leave those asking Mr Fei questions behind...

It's now 0131... I so feel like opening the door, take a deep breathe and yell: "Fuck off" to everyone in the vacinity...

I really really want to go to that place now... Really do... Right now this instant... But it's on the other side of Singapore... The really really end of Singapore... Heck, I'm going there on Sunday... I need to spend some time there... Spending time there always makes me feel relaxed... Can study there also... Settled... I'm going on Sunday...

Guess who just failed his GP test and Maths test...

Karolyn, I'm just trying to cheer you up ok... You don't have to go all nuts on me... But than again... Maybe I should just mind my own business...

Damn, it's 2am... Guess who has to wake up at 7am tomorrow... And guess whose going to just lay there thinking about what the hell is going on...

Of course lah, there'll be SOME PEOPLE who will use this to prove their point that I'm an "Unsympathatic Asshole who cares nothing but others but himself" person... Let me show you what an unsympathatic Asshole I can be than...

Hell, here I come... Save a space for me...

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Monday, February 12, 2007 @ 20:37

I so want to scream the F word out now!!! Some nicompoop has chosen this ungodly time to renovate his house now! And he's making a damn lot of noise! Even blasting music isn't working... Screw it... There's still bio SPA tomorrow... GREAT LAH!!! I'm damn pissed... PISSED... And what the heck is up with blogger... They say one off thing whether want to upgrade anot, I already said no than they force me to upgrade... What the hell... Anyway, shopping's almost done... Just left buying wrapping paper and a orange animal that hops and talks in a funny accent... Lol...

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @ 20:47

I tell you... If this goes on, I'm so going to be dead at the end of the week... Today's already tuesday... Past few nights, guess who suffered from sleeplessness, falling asleep only at 1am, only to wake up at 3am due to a nightmare than be unable to fall asleep until 5am than wake up at 6am... 3 guesses... And the first 2 don't count... I guess... No matter what advices people give, from ignoring them to treating them to dinner to just telling them to screw off, it's hard to put it into action... The cold war has started...

I know this is just adding kerosine to the fire but I really really miss sms-ing *******... I feel so bored without sms-ing her... What the heck... Why am I feeling this way??? Screw it...

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